The reality

(backdated) This day, my period came while i was at work. Just prior to its arrival, I was still surfing motherhood forums and looking forward to the famous 'what to expect when you're expecting' book. At the first sign of blood, i realised how i really felt about having a baby. I teared sitting alone and in the toilet stall. then smsed hubby and msg sis to let them know the news. sis because i had asked her some advise about pregnancy and she asked if i was. it really was a classic case of not knowing what you want until you lose it?

nonetheless, there was of course some relief. yes, back to caffeine and heels and so many other things i couldn't really do liberally while i didn't know. but now me and hubby know not so easy to pregnant liao, also sigh of relief. we decided not to prevent for now. see how things go. perhaps the close brush with a baby made us realise, that we really were ready to be parents afterall =) perhaps the pregnancy test kit i ordered will come in handy next month