School updates

The last two days (Wed and today), Tanya's been really brave and going in on her own now that she doesnt throw a crying fit. Preparing for school however is sometimes still a bit of a challenge as she is reluctant to get ready. But nice to see things are improving!

school: week 2 day 2

Today (Tuesday), for the first time when me and Ming left her there, she did not cry! She bravely kissed us and ventured forward to hold Mrs Wong's hand =) So proud of my baby! Although maybe she was too stunned from me having driven her to school hehe Later will be driving to my sis place.. gulp! Good luck to myself!

Very trying, tiring few days

Monday Tanya started school. Monday and Tuesday went well because I could stay with her. I guess I should have done more to prepare her for when I will not be there with her but I was too busy getting her to enjoy her classes and being an assistant teacher ... faint

Came Wednesday, must have been one of the toughest few hours of my life. I was asked to keep out of sight. Its so difficult in earshot but not within sight; hearing your child cry for you and ask "Why mummy go?" "Why won't mummy come?" I cried so much the principal asked me if I was okay...fainted. But as I was discretely shooed out of school, she settled in and participated more than when I was in class with her. (The principal took photos to show me ;P what a great school...)

When I collected her, she seemed well enough and even said she liked school. Home was annoyingly noisy with very loud drilling going on so we had to take refuge at my in law's place after lunch. That night I had a terrible fight with Ming. Its so hard being a mother and wife. Sometimes I forget how blessed I am to have Ming and Tanya....

Today I hoped and prayed she'll be fine, with all my reassurances that I will leave her there and pick her later for yummy food. She even repeated after me. But in school when I was to leave, she refused to say goodbye and cried again. Mrs Wong carried her off to the playground while I was asked to take my leave. Now at home, finishing up chores and waiting for time to prepare her lunch then collect her from school.

headaches

been plagued with headaches this entire week... what's happening?

Panadols becoming my regular tea time friend =( is something wrong?

BFN

After another night of disturbed rest, decided to get it over and done with. Result above. I hate the guessing and misreading all my signs. Sigh. Ah well I knew there was v slim chance as timing was quite off. You know what they say about dreams opposite to reality. I actually dreamt I got a positive test. Lol. Well it's back to the drawing board I guess.